nature

There is almost nothing in nature that stirs my heart so much as seeing canada geese migrating. I don't know why exactly, but it excites me and lifts my spirits to see them. Their flight represents strength, freedom, and intuition. I saw them this morning as I was walking from my car to my office. A smile came to my lips and I had to stop and watch them as they climbed.

A couple years ago I was dating a guy who I was destined NOT to be with. We had a very strong physical attraction but our situations and philosophies were completely different. One of my strongest memories of being with him was lying in bed one morning, just waking up. I was just becoming conscious and the first thing I heard was the sound of geese honking outside. From the sound of it, they were passing overhead, and in my mind's eye I could see them, their long necks straining, their wings beating, their voices carrying over the houses and the trees. My eyes were closed and my heart began beating a little faster and my lips curled into a smile. I felt my friend stirring beside me and heard his voice say, "mmm...I wish I had my gun."

it was like he had thrown ice water over my head. My heart constricted, my muscles tensed, and my mind shut down every good feeling I had toward him, just like that. It was a clear illustration of everything that was different between us, and even though we dated a little longer, I never had the affection for him that I had hoped might develop.

it was a little sad to know that he wasn't the guy for me, but at the same time, I was delighted to learn that I could follow my own heart, I could keep things in perspective, I could do what felt right to me, and not have to sacrifice my own ideals just to alleviate some loneliness. Strength, freedom, intuition. I think I know why I love the geese so much :)